Isn't She Lovely

Hello Everyone, Happy Music Monday, I hope you are all doing well and looking forward to the Holiday. I was lucky enough to have Briana over last week for her first sleepover, she was finally ready, or should I say both her and Christa were finally ready. Now that Briana is 3 yrs old she has begun to be a little rebellious LOL! (no, I am not enjoying the payback, no, not at all!) The highlight of the sleepover for me was when Briana and I were playing basketball and she said to me "Good catch Tyrone", I was in stitches laughing, like where did she get that name from?? When I said it back to her, she then informed me that she was Pablo! She is just such a funny girl, I never know what is going to come out of her mouth and I love it that way! But then in the quiet moments I can't help but look at her and think what a lovely, beautiful, God send she is, just like her mother was to me, and it brings me to tears. I am also so proud of Christa, who has grown into a lovely women and is doing an amazing job raising her family. Not to take away from Dana and Christopher who are such loves themselves, but I just wanted to dedicate this Music Monday to my precious girls who are and will always be the sunshine in my life. And as Stevie says "I can't believe what God has done", how blessed am I.

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Love ya,

Janet :)

I Love You More

Hi Everyone,
How are ya, good I hope. I started writing Poetry when I was in my young teens. It was for me therapy. It helped me to express and be in touch with my emotions and still does today, obviously the other day I was in a pissed off mood. Words come to me easy from somewhere above I believe. I used to pretend I was taking notes in class, but I was really writing poems. Now when it gets slow at work I write poems in the photo notebook. I still have a lot of my older ones and some day I would like to publish a book. If any of you out there know an easy way to do it please let me know. On Monday I was going to go visit with Christa and Bri. I didn't feel too good, so I am going tomorrow. I am going to teach her how to Celebrate St. Patricks Day. Even though I am mostly Italian, I do have a little Irish in me. And who else better to teach her! I bought her some beer glasses and a hat and shirt. I hope to get some funny video of it. After Christa got off the phone with me Bri decided she wanted to call me. She's not even 3 yrs old yet! She has become this little girl and talks so well on the phone, no more baby:( And now when you tell her you love her, she says I love you more. Just when I think I can't love her anymore than I do, there she goes. She helped heal my ailments that day. It's 9pm and I have had 93 visitors so far today with 6 people on. Thank you all so much, I hope each and every one of you keep coming back everyday. It brings me much happiness which I especially need these past few days:)
Have a Happy Hump Day!
Janet :)

Confusion, Delusions,
State of mind, unwind
What is true, what is
untruth

What's meant to be?
Is there a Destiny?
Follow head or follow
heart, torn apart

From Sunrise to Sunset,
Some things are hard
to forget.
Lessons learned,
through pain and hurt.

Physically and Emotionally
my body aches
Rain on my face,
fiercely, not gently

Questions unanswered
leave me to imagine
Why do I do this to myself
I Prefer Heaven to hell

I am closing the door
on learning more
At least for today,
Tomorrow may lead
another way.
To happiness, knowing
no pain I pray

When I Get Where I'm Going

Hi Everyone,
I hope you are doing well, I am doing good. I wanted to write this post tomorrow but I cannot stop thinking about Wendy tonight. On Wednesday my son in law Dana will turn 30. I love him so much, he is such a good husband and father. He was his mother's only son. They were so close that I could never put it in words. She was also very close to all of her children and grandchildren. When we first met we hit it off. To know Wendy was to love her. She believed in Angels like me and had them all over her house. She was also a survivor. She had cancer in her 40's and had to have Whipple surgery. Most people don't live after the surgery. She lived 5 yrs after that. How happy were Dana and Christa that she was there to dance at their wedding. She adored Christa as much as I adored Dana. We had so many happy times together in those few years. When Christa and Dana were expecting Briana me and Wendy were in our glory about what a beautiful grandchild we would have together. Then the cancer came back. She was on her death bed when Christa was due. Her doctor induced her so that Wendy could meet Briana before she passed away. They spent 24 hours together when Briana was a day old. Wendy knew she was there and said good job to Christa and Dana. When I went to say goodbye to Wendy I put an Angel stone in her hand and said I would give it to Briana when she is older so she knows to call on you when she is in need of guidance and protection. Last summer all of a sudden Briana started pointing at the Angels that Christa and Dana took from her house and she kept saying Mimmi. So I took that as a sign that she is her guardian Angel. I also promised Wendy on that day as well that I will take care of them and make sure they want or need nothing and I am doing that. I am trying hard to take better care of myself to be here for them as well. On Dana's birthday I will buy him his favorite cake, get him what he needs. Every night Briana kisses a picture of Wendy. She always looks at the wall to the picture of the two of you. Sometimes when I am playing with Bri in front of Dana I have to hide my tears, because it is so unfair that we are not doing it together and he does not have that with you like Christa has with me. At least Bri has your hair. So a part of you physically is here with her. I hope when you got to where you were going you only know true happiness and peace. I am a better person for having you and your family in my life. Miss you so, much, This is the song she picked to be played at her funeral.
Thanks for visiting my blog,
Take Care,
Janet :)

Believe More Than Ever Before

Hi Everyone,
I hope you are all doing well. I am doing great. It was a great week in Paradise, if you have never been to Aruba and some day you plan a trip I would highly recommend it, but ask me about where we stayed. Some are better than others. When we arrived they gave us a free two bedroom upgrade that had an ocean view which was a minute walk away from us. They have specials every night at their two bars one at the hotel and one on the beach. Two for one etc, barbecue night, great food every time we tried it in their restraints. Everyday the staff at the resort come in and make your bed and clean your room. It was the better than I expected. Today we went to Brianna's 2nd birthday, it was alot of fun. Christa got a bounce house and her and her cousins had alot of laughs. This time of year is always bittersweet. Brianna was born, yet 4 days later her grandmother Wendy died. For those of you who follow me, I don't mean to repeat this part of the story, but something happened today that I have to share and I want to fill in my new readers. When Wendy was in her last days, I went to a store that sells Angel stones. One for guardian etc. For some reason I felt compelled to buy one and when I sat with Wendy in her last day's I placed it in her hand. I whispered in her ear that I would give this Angel stone to Brianna when she is old enough to understand. There it stayed until she passed away. Christa is holding on to it and sometimes I check because I forget easily, you still have it right Christa, Ya mom LOL! Wendy also loved Angels, they were everywhere in her house. So today me and Briana wound up walking over to Christa's little garden that is filled with Wendy's Angel's that were in her garden. Then as we walked away Christa said something she has never said to me before. She told me every time Briana looks at an Angel she says Mimme which is her name for me. It hit me like a bolt of lightning and for a minute I went into shock, then before I could remind Christa she got busy doing other things. I felt Wendy let me know today she knew what I did and yes she is her Angel. It brings a tear to my eye and a smile to face because I truly believe she is watching over Brianna when I am not there and she is still with us at every gathering, Thank you Wendy I believed before, but now more than ever. One other sad note, Wendy's mother had to be taken off life support Friday. She had heart troubles and things went down from there. Her name was Lois and she was a great lady. I know she is with Wendy and her other daughter Judy who passed away a year before Wendy. Rest in peace Lois. I am glad I got to know you in my lifetime.
Thanks for visiting my blog,
Take Care,
Janet :)